I really wish i could set myself on fire right now.
I got into combined and i'm not happy with myself.
I think with all this stress, I'll go berserk soon enough.
I'm going to cry my lungs out, get asthma, get hospitalized
and just stone there and go crazy. I rather do that than see my results.

You are my healer

Yesterday could be the worst day ever in my life and
i really never want to experience it again.
I was so careless, i was stupid, i really hate myself for what happened.
Whenever i look at my scars, i keep thinking that this is all a nightmare
but it isn't. It's reality and i'm really scared.
I don't dare go out in public anymore. I don't want to have horrid scars
all over my whole leg. Crying for 2 hours due to hot pain, it sucks.
It feels as if your whole body's on fire. Tons of ice didn't help either.
Frozen cold ice packs didn't either. My whole leg was burning.
I just felt like committing suicide 'cos i couldn't take it anymore.
Now, looking at those horrible blisters just makes me hate myself more and more.
I hate the feeling where everyone's staring at you as if you're some alien.
Seeing their face go into disgust makes my self-esteem go down.
Lying on the horrible bed is scary and i hate it. Waiting for 45 minutes lying there,
just looking at the clock and time pass by is horrible.
The worst part is seeing all those horrible huge blisters forming.
Being surrounded by the nurses and telling me that it'll be okay.
But i know that no matter how many times they burst those blisters,
they'll just keep forming and forming. Feeling all the pus flow down my leg
and those needles poking my blisters just feels so disgusting.
I hate myself for being so stupid, really.
Those scars that may stay permanent on my leg will make me
remember every single pain that i went through yesterday.

Freak, so drama. Thanks Rebecca, Michelle and Tzeli for your concern :)
It definitely made me feel way better!
WHOEVER WHO WANTS PICTURES TELL ME, HAHHAH!

Labels: 2nd degree, 5%, scars

The faces all around me they don't smile they just crack
Waiting for our ship to come but our ships not coming back
We do have time like pennies in a jar
What are we saving for

There's a smell of stale fear that's reeking from our skins.
The drinking never stops because the drinks absolve our sins
We sit and grow our roots through the floor
But what are we waiting for?

So give me something to believe
Cause I am living just to breathe
And I need something more
To keep on breathing for
So give me something to believe

Horrible night yesterday, kept waking up and my nose felt so horrible.
My whole body felt so flushed and i had a horrible vision.

I just watched Ugly Betty season3! It's nice, at least for the first epi.
My mum's not that horrible actually She's going Raffles TC to have jap food.
I wanted to go but i thought i stay at home and get better for tomorrow!
I'm going out with Michelle to Marina and Raffles i guess.
I spot a BIGI spree and i want to buy bags from there *_*

You and I were made to worship

in like 15 mins i'll be out of the house!
Meeting Rebecca 2 buy Bubble tea first
i went to paint my nails, i was super bored.
Went to do a french mani then removed it then did
a nail colour then removed it then i did a silver colour
HAHAHA :D I can't wait for ep9 of GG!
ep8 looks cool and the story's getting interesting, haha:D

(EDIT)
Going to school was a huge mistake but it was fun.
I got a freaking booking for next year during our hols by a stupid short bi*ch
why? 'cos we were wearing slippers. Freedom much?
I think our school is becoming a horrible Boot camp. Why?
I'm sure everyone knows why. Teachers become annoying to the max and
new STUPID, MINDLESS rules being applied that don't really help us.
Anyway, that stupid short bi*ch has been hated by prac. everyone.
Even my brother & cousin hate her and it's been pretty long since they graduated.

MRT-ed to Dhoby Ghaut and took awhile to find the exit to Cathay's side.
In the end we just picked some random exit and walked to Cathay.
Bought the tickets to HSM3 and then ate Carls at Plaza.
The movie was so corny, disgusting-whiny-voice-Vanessa, No plot to the story.
It wasn't horrible but neither was it really good.
Junhou left first while we Bus-ed back home.
OOOOH, btw, i kept feeling as if i was drunk(weird much)
and now 'm having a really horrible headache and i feel so flushed

I wonder whether you're actually that innocent.
If you are, i can't believe everyone's being deceived by you

Here it comes in the morning
I’m just trying to forget
Keep it real, keep it simple
And somehow just get out of bed
And this city is endless
I’m as cold as it’s stone
Yeah this city is endless
And I’m, I’m walking alone

Sunlight creeps in between the curtains
Lose the sheets there’s no time for sleep
I lie, I pretend ‘til I’m almost certain
It’s a beautiful world

I wanna ask for direction
But I don’t dare to disturb
I got a thing with affections
Yeah, that’s why I’m walking alone

No Botanics today 'cos mum and I woke up late.
Tomorrow i can't go either 'cos I'm going to school
Amazing, I'm actually looking forward to go to school.
HSM3 tomorrow with like half of the clique(?!?!)
Piano later and then i want to go jogging.
It seems like me going jogging never is successful(hhahaa)
Thursday i must must must must must go Botanics.
Nobody destruct me from my thursday plans =
Botanics, Sleep, Eat, Play, Eat, Play, Sleep!
Someone go out with me on that day please :)

Time isn't telling me a thing
It's playing with my heart
I'm tearing at the seams

You on the other hand
Choosing words to understand
It's old, I'm sure you know how...

We always find ourselves in
The deepest corner of the darkest hour
We can't get much louder than this
We always lose our hearts in the strangest places
Picking up the pieces we break

Bomb it 2 with sister + GG2 was pretty fun yesterday(26/10/08)
I didn't eat out yesterday at all instead we ordered in
good italian stuff and i'm super full already.

On the other hand, i was supposed to go cycling today
but i was so lazy to wake up so i decided not to!
Hopefully i can on Friday :D

Hey choir clique girls
I was thinking if you guys might want to cycle on
Friday, 31 October at ECP 10am meet at somewhere?

(EDIT)
It's stupidly boring today. I really want to get out of this horrible house.
Bomb it 2's getting boring, so is GG2. But i'm going to continue watching
The CS isn't working 'cos of my stupid Computer's CD drive.
I've been finding alot of nice songs. I love A Cappella songs man.
BTW, outing on friday cancelled since it's Streaming day *_*
(/EDIT)

(RE-EDIT)
Hey babe, i know you know who i'm talking about.
Things have been really really rough these past few 4+ months.
People have been telling me that you really really really
want us to get back as-per-normal. I kept telling them
the same thing, thank you+soon we will.
Honestly, i'm really scared to face you(are you?)
I feel so horrible and bad for complaining about you(heh)
I was so angry and frustrated and jealous too.
I was like, how could my bestest bestest best friend just
abandon me like that? I felt so used but yet deep inside me
i knew that you just can't possible abandon him either.
So i thought, maybe leave you with him for awhile, strengthen your
relationship and stuff. Before you actually found out.
Unfortunately, you were already told by someone before i could tell you
how i felt(haha). But still, i thank HER for telling you.
It would be a much easier task for me but yet not sincere.
The first time we fought was so stupid and i was super pissed.
I guess that really did tarnish our friendship and
of all things, you had to get together with him when
you shifted away(way bad) Why?
1. I wouldn't be able to talk to you on the MRT/Bus rides.
2. We couldn't go out that often.
I guess all these small things just made us drift.
I'm not going to blame you for everything 'cos it was my fault too.
You did drift away from the clique but you still have a special
place in the clique that no one can take away or replace.
I can't do much, you've just got to step up from all of us and
reclaim that position and just show them that you're here
and we actually notice you rather than you being here but
we don't notice you at all, right?

I miss your company alot too, i really want us to meet up.
Go back to our usual spots and just chill.
Our fav spot at Carls, walking around Marina, going to Zara
and Topshop and Dorothy perkins and having our usual
Starbucks trip and walking around City hall. Buying my
favorite Percy Pigs and going to random shops. Orchard trips
to Wheelock's Marks and Spencer and going to Wisma and
going to esprit. I think it's time we checked out the Esprit at Liat.
Actually, i rather not talk about this at all.
We know everything that we want to tell each other(don't we?)
I just want to forget every single thing that has happened and
I've long time forgiven you.But right now, i don't hate/detest you
I'm just disappointed with you(and myself) Let's hook up on Friday/next friday!
I really hope everything will be solved and we'll be back to normal, Michelle.
(/RE-EDIT)

(RE-RE-EDIT)
As you can see, i'm really bored 'cos i reedited this post don't know
how many times :D I had nice beef rice for dinner(yay me)

SO these are the stuff i bought from Old navy




BYE PEOPLE I'M GOING BOTANICS TOMORROW!
(/RE-RE-EDIT)

I don't want to lose it, coming down
With the whole world upside-down
I don't have a soul to trust in now
With the whole world upside-down

We are one, tonight!
And we're singing it out!
We are one, tonight!
And we're dreaming out loud!

And the world is flawed
But these scars will heal

Adriel's church thing at Botanics was
Interesting + Fun + Dirty + Watery + Muddy + Salivary
Interesting & Fun 'cos we played Frisbee, some "baseball" thing, Tug of War
Dirty & Muddy 'cos the grass was wet
Watery + Salivary 'cos the guys were spitting water at our face
and 'cos Hongting the stupid **XX**XX**XX poured water on my hair.
Overall, it's all pretty fun and stuff.
Tzeli and I went crazy while going to Fairprice
and Thanks for passing me the disc tzeli!

Tag replies:
Rebecca: Hhahaha, suit yourself! I've got something to tell you on MSN
Come online right now!
Michelle: Hahaha, yup GG!
Tzeli: Yea, it was pretty fun! :D Totally enjoyed, haha.

Last night I fell in love without you.
I waved goodbye to that heart of mine
Beating solo on your lawn
Every aching wound will cauterize and bruise

In memory of what we used to call in love
And only time will tell if violins will swell
In memory of what we used to call in love
Used to call it loveLast night I fell in love without you
The coup de grâce that set me off
Would've made for decent fiction

I'm totally sleeping like a pig nowadays! HAHAHA, but it feels good.
My fringe is pretty much almost back to normal, so i'm happy!
I can't wait to get back home from Adriel's church thing
and watch GG2 + playing CS with the computers and not myself(haha)
Omgosh, totally can't wait :D

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed, you said

It's sooo duper boring. I'm stuck at home so i can go
for Adriel's church thing at Botanics.
But, the huge problem is that i haven't asked my mum at all.
Woke up at 10 and i tried playing CS but there was no aiming thing
and i couldn't play with computers so i stopped.
Went to find a layout for the journal which took me 3 hours
and ever since then, i've been watching Gossip Girl 1.
I'm slow, i know, 'cos i just started. Well, i can't stand G
such a freaking idiot(hahaha) I'm so totally getting Ugly Betty 3.

I want to go out tonight and eat beef(haha)

You're not alone, together we stand
I'll be by your side, You know I'll take your hand

When it gets cold, and it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in, no I won't give in

Keep holdin' on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just, stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you

I'm writing letters for the class clique
I keep thinking about everything that's happened this year.
From driving away Sun teacher then Yee teacher and Sun teacher
and that Friday that we all got in trouble and i felt so bad and cried so much
to Wheel week and JBAT camp(Zoowawa, haha) that really made
our whole class bond super duper much to HILLSONG to Countdown then to
Funfair preparations and then to Strangers outing to
Funfair and that night where we went to Holland and Swensons and then
to Founders day then to National Day then to Teachers day where
you guys came over and we had so much fun and we went to vivo
to play hide and seek and then to our daily lunches with each other
either at holland or anchorpoint or clementi and then to
our EOY preps in the classrooms and doing crazy music vids! to
Praying before our EOY papers to madness people at my place
playing rockband to going to lan, lunching at clementi's KFC
and of course every little small thing that we talk about!
I'm really going to miss your! You people really made each day of my life
better from the previous day. Without your i think i would just hate
my whole Secondary life! Let's hope to hangout with each other
in the upcoming years alright? CLASS JERSEY AND OUTING AND CHALET!

Just printed rebecca's cards, Got to cut them out later.
Rebecca and Tzeli's cards are going to be nicer than the rest.
Just that i can't think of anything to make it look nicer(haha)!
Tomorrow's last day of school, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Party's busted

Wasted 3 hours of precious time in school waiting for
Hongting then Rebecca then Chua, hahaha.
Brought the SLR to school and took a few cool shots!
You're trying to break our family apart is it?
If so, just do it directly rather than trying to hint stuff
'cos it's so freaking obvious that you need not hint anymore.
I guess alot of my classmates all will get into trouble?
I'm so pissed off with my mother. I don't see why i can't hang out with them
'cos i know how to chose my friends I'm not a 6 year old kid
who needs my parents to decide who i should friend.
I don't see how you can trust an outsider more than your own family.

After all the waiting, we (Tzeli, Hongting, Adriel, Chua, Rebecca)
wanted to head home but we decided to go Ikea.
We saw people using this cute trolley to carry their plates
so we all took the trolleys too! It's super duper adorable(haha)
After we ate, we headed to Queensway to look at class jerseys
(I know it's a lil bit late) We found a good, nice and cheap one!
Then i followed duck to Evergreen to buy ink but in the end we didn't
so we bought colour paper and I'm helping duck to print.
Then i bus-ed home from there.

I'm not sure if you're referring to me(most likely you are)
Well, i think you totally misunderstood me. I don't know where
you heard the "Express cannot hang out with NT/NA" people from,
but i don't think that way okay. I hang out with NA people too!
I don't see any wrong in them 'cos they're equally the same as us
they're human beings they're equally as nice as express students
In fact, some are even nicer than express students.
On the other hand, if i ever did say something bad about them
i apologize 'cos it might have just been at the heat of the moment.
I do not want to quarrel or have any misunderstandings with you at all.
So i hope this whole hoo-ha can just stop immediately

Hypocritical

I'm really seriously really really really really going to mug
next year! I'll be a freaking cool nerd(hahahaha)
I can't stand seeing my level position fall by almost 100+
Such a disappointment Oh well, hopefully i really do change my study ways!
I seriously pray that i can get into doubs course.

My parents are supposed to see my Form T.
But they aren't going 'cos i forced them not to go.
Who wants to wake up so early on a "holiday".
Most probably tea with duck tomorrow and last day of school
will be lan with the meat-mixed-with-breadcrumbs-rolled-into-a-ball people!
aka Faggots! I just realised that there are so many meanings of faggot.
It can mean some wood thing and stuff! See, it doesn't
necessarily need to be something vulgar, haha :D

School was boring today, i dozed off during hist.
Alot of people pon-ed, Tzeli, Chua, Rebeccawai? and Joshua.
Chinese was okay, it wasn't as boring as i expected it to be.
AHHHHH, 2 days to get the cards done! I better start writing tomorrow.
I can't wait for the Dec SeventeenUS to arrive! Hope it's thick too
and i can't wait for Old navy to arrive, my pretty dress!

Labels: I promise myself

Open our eyes
To see the things that make Your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen

Break down our pride
And all the walls were built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet

Let hope rise, and darkness tremble
In Your holy light, that every eye will see
Jesus our God, Great and mighty to be praised

God of all days
Glorious in all of Your ways
Oh the majesty the wonder and grace
In the light of Your Name

With everything, With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything, With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

Our hearts they cry
Be glorified
Be lifted high above all names, For You our King
With everything, We will shout forth Your praise

Today was pretty much alright except for the part where
i felt so horrible and my stomach was so quench-y during choir.
Rebecca, Tzeli and I were slacking throughout PE(lazy people)
Literature and Chinese were pure slacking sessions.
Science we learned some weird chemical thing
and Maths was pretty much awkward, but we all feel so bad.
Guess what, i just realised i left my full scap under the maths table!
I REALLY SUPER DUPER DUPER HOPE NOBODY TAKES IT:(

The Full choir clique(finally) went to Holland's BK and
ever since then, my stomach felt soo horrible.
Came back and found the guys playing hide and seek?
Rebecca and Yeewei bought some melted sweet candy thing
and it got stuck in rebecca's mouth(hahaha!)

Choir was horrible 'cos i felt horrible. Let's hope we don't screw up
for SYF and the concert! I really don't want the choir to screw up :(

It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday I didnt know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by
But I will try
I will try wipe the tears from my eyes

I'm beautifully broken and I don't mind if you know it
I'm beautifully broken and I don't care if I show it

Every day is a new day I'm reminded of my past
Everytime theres another storm I know that it wont last
Every moment I'm filled with hope
cause i get another chance
But I will try I will try
Got nothing left to hide

Church was fine, had BS in the church's office.
time pretty much passed really quickly today.
Lunch-ed at Sun with Moon, walked around borders,
went Esprit's new outlet at Liat towers, went to Massimo Dutti
then went to borders again and bought some books.
Went to Zara kids! Their clothes are sooo adorable!
Amazingly, i can fit in some of the clothes. It's cheaper too!
Then it started raining, but Dad came to pick us.

There's school tomorrow which means PE!
So many things to do this week!
1. Got to buy stuff for birthday cards.
2. Write cards for classmates!
3. Tea date with Rebecca!
4. Last day of school!

Vodkas and Martinis

Figured that there was no tuition when we arrived.
Kate and I were like just shocked. Hahahaha, not the first time this has happened.
Well, good thing. I called Tzeli and we met at Clementi MRT.
Kate alighted at Redhill while Tze and I took to outram park and
we supposedly thought we were heading towards Dhoby Ghaut
but actually we figured we were heading to Habourfront by the time we reached.
So, i went to buy my starbucks and then we headed off to Habourfront's macs.
Played with the Shaker fries thing, hahaha! Then we went to Best Denki at vivo
and while waiting for guitar hero 3 we saw Mrs Tan and Mr Tan!
HAHAHA, guitar hero 3 was so boring okay. Then we decided to
bus to ZOOM at clementi and then we went to 7 eleven and bought B&Js!
Wasted the icecream, vanilla tasted horrible. Joshua popped out of somewhere
then we played CS and some weird DOTA thing.
Bus-ed to Clementi MRT and mrt-ed home at 5!

I really hope i can upload photos today! I can't wait to edit them
I shall go write cards for the class people!

Misery love company

Everyone has flaws and that's for sure.
You aren't perfect either and i'm sure your friends too
aren't happy with your flaws. My problems with my friends
are my problems i don't need you to teach me how to solve my problems.
So what if i'm arrogant, that's my flaw right? So you've just got to accept it.
My friends will accept my flaws if their my true friends.
If they don't accept it then it's their problem.
It's not affecting me but affecting them
like the way you're quarreling with me is not affecting me but you
'cos you're bringing this problem into your life.

To all anonymous on my blog, i have to repeat this umpteen times,
Add me on MSN and we'll talk alright? :)

This things make my laugh, HAHA.

btw, ugly betty's pretty. So thanks bestfriends!

Lying in my bed I hear the clocks and can think of you
Caught up in circles confusion is nothing new

You say go slow I fall behind
The second hand on wines
If you lost you can move and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I’ll catch you I’ll be waiting
Time after time

Time after time
Time after time

Sometimes you picture me
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me
I can’t see just what you said

My throat feels as if it has a dagger stabbing the sides of my throat.
Anyway, lessons were plain stupid today. Did i mention?
All the teachers in my school are having weird vibes(duuh)
They've become so freaking annoying and freak-ed up
not to mention, they keep having mood swings. Probably down on love?
Love changes people man, so don't underestimate it.
HAHA, okay that was rubbish but it's true.

Commemoration service was pretty much stupid.
But worship was good and i liked it and i just felt like crying.
Well, Chinese class i did cry. I was so pissed off and frustrated.
I seriously don't know what's your stupid problem nowadays.
In fact, for the past few months you've been such a bi*ch.
I really detest and hate you to the core and i will forever hate you
no matter how nice you try to be to us. 'Cos most of the time
you suck to the freaking core. I was so angry and i was just so pissed off
with the rest inclusive of you. I'm so frustrated with my results and just my life
I made myself laugh i forced it out. I told myself, i can't cry anymore.
I won't give into you anymore, i won't lose to you
We went to the Library for English and we pretty much slacked
then we borrowed our books and came out to play truth or dare.
After that, 15 of us headed to SP to eat macs!
Finally, one of my cravings have been fulfilled! Bought mcflurry too!

Choir was fun and found out what we were doing already.
Thanks yeewei(yea right) Haha, kidding :)
After choir, Rebecca, Yeewei and I stayed back for awhile.
Went opp, to buy bubble tea! Came back and we took pictures!
Really spastic one, unfortunately i can't update with pictures
'cos my brother just booked out and he's using the computer.
Hopefully tomorrow! :D

I Heart Revolution

Mum found out about results and started giving the lil prep talk.
Got so irritated and walked off.
My results sucks, i'm so disappointed with myself.
No more Double sciences? Most probably combined.
Today's a screwed up freaking day.
Thanksgiving service turned to some stupid waste time scolding.
I was sleeping throughout and what's with the teachers nowadays?

I don't think i can love you anymore

Having nothing to do made me think about something.
It's really burdening to see everyone like that.
For once i wish and hope to experience life in that way.
I'm sick and tired and my head is all so cramped up with
everything in my head. I guess it was never meant to be like that.
That's why i want to be like that and never get deceived by that true meaning

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I've made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I'll hold on to this moment you know.
As I bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever and now.
Pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what I did and how so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone, With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

I finally fulfilled my craving for Icecreeeeaaaaaaaam
Omfreak, i did horribly for my EOYs(honestly) and my horrible isn't an A2
but it's a D7 and C6. As usual, i failed chinese! I don't really care(haha)
Tze and I kept getting around the same marks so i guess that determines
that we'll most probably be in the same class, cooliooozxz!
I'm so disappointed with myself 'cos of Maths, Science, Hist and Eng!

Lunched at Clementi's KFC with Joel woon, Chua, Joshua and Rebecca.
Popcorn chicken(fattening) and medium root beer with 2 packs of fries.
Ate really little popcorn chicken and fries(tasted weird)
Headed back to school and we waited fo Tze to come and for
the Choir comm meeting to start then Tzeli, Rebecca and I
went to Holland to eat COLDROCK! First time man!
The girls are sooooooooooo cute!
We ate Lemon Sorbet, Choc Mint, Mars bars and Hot fudge(Large)
Fantastic mix of icecream by me
We loved the Lemon sorbet so much that we got a kiddies with Gummy bears!
It was sooooo good okay.
I've got this cute coupon so, i'm going to use it with Tze and Rebecca
when we go back to Cold rock! Leonard still owes me Haagen daaz.
Bought Coffee bean on the way back, yet another craving!
Started talking about weird stuff while walking to the bus stop.

Who cares about results anymore, i'm going to party and start
my serious wardrobe shopping. I need to renovate my bathroom,
get a serious makeover paint wash for my room and maybe new beds!
Nice silver walls and a duper cool modern-zen bed and maybe
bigger built-in cupboards! Definitely need more bags and clothes!
I wish my mum holds old navy, cute jacket and shoes.

Choirclique! I'm planning for us to go cycling at ECP
on one of the days next week after school! So tell me your opinions

Zonks, i can't believe the year's going to end soon!
I'm so going to miss 2A so much. They're sure a lovely class
I had fun today, Rebecca and Tzeli!

Say it ain't so, Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so, My love is a life taker


Inter class games today. Captain's ball and Frisbee team played well!
Rebecca and I photo-ed well(haha)! 2A totally owns and kicks asses
Captains ball: Rebecca W., Tzeli, Rachel, Hongting, Adriel,
Junhou, Leonard, Jonathan and Xingyi!
Frisbee: Priscilla Lim, Faye, Pris. Lam, Lizhen, Jeanette,
Kimberley, Minxian, Rachel Lau, Amanda and Rebekah Chua.


Rebecca and I were supposed to play but(hehe), we went slacking
and taking really cool shots of captains ball!
A new collection to my horribly taken pictures!
I got to use Jiale's super duper cool camera(huge)!
Since i can't get an ipod, i shall get a super duper professional camera!

We played against 2E and 2F for preliminary round.
Frisbee team lost to 2F, but it's okay 'cos 2F was pro but in a scary way.
Went back to classroom between break intervals to relax with the aircon.
Thank goodness our classroom's on the first floor man.
We waited super duper long for stupid capts ball to start.
It was our turn against 2G/H? It was a super exciting match and
Rebecca and I were screaming our lungs out(madness)
We lost but i think they played super duper well.
Ooh, that freaking biased teacher pisses me off so much
Played with 2B to decide who gets 3rd or 4th.
Stupid jonathan and rebecca thought i as shouting for joel.
I was saying wahlau and not joel and they
said stupid stuff about someone and someone
I was really screaming madly and my throat hurts now!


Lunch-ed at Anchorpoint with Chua, Leonard, Joel, Joshua, Rebecca and I
The Sweet talk auntie is bizarre, she put the leftover blended stuff
into a plastic bag and told me to take it(wth) and she can't blend at all.
Mum picked me up and went for piano. Argh, i hate grade 8.

Tomorrow's dooms day for everyone, i guess.

I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Today's out with the huge class clique!
Gonna watch eagle eye dudezxzxxx! Can't wait 'cos there's Shia Labeouf!
I'll edit this post when i'm back so watch it.

Tag replies
Hongting: Rightttt, hahahha. I never got the story line for that story man.
Michelle: Hahaha, yea i'll chill. Yuppppp! Maybe Thursday or something! Let's go to the Museum!

(EDIT)
Urgh, i'm back from class outing with the dudexz!
We saw disgusting XXXX XXXX and XXXX XXXX!
Bought the tickets to Eagle eye at 150 and it was one long strip of tickets!
We went to carls first to eat a lil bit then we went around and around then
we went to the arcade and then the other guys went to play XBOX 360.
I have no idea what we were doing at the arcade either but we sent an SOS
to the guys saying that XXXX XXXX was here! Then they came up and we
were so bored with the arcade so we were pretty reluctant to go back.
But thank goodness we did 'cos Rebecca and i had a blast screaming
our lungs out at that freaky game! With all the bugs and stuff!
We wasted almost super precious $20 on the game. We played a racing game
which probably sucked much and then i wasted on $$$ on a drum game
'cos i accidently press okay at a wrong song. Later we quickly went for the movie
Movie was freaking action and it was super duper cool and cold.
SHIA LABEOUF SO FREAKING HOOOOOOTTTTTTT
Stuff happened that was good for both of them!

After the movie Adriel, Chua and Junhou left.
Went to buy percy pigs, bus-ed to clementi to waste our freaking time
waiting for the stupid idiot lan guy! Such a piss off.
But never mind, the rest left and Joel, Joshua, Rebecca and I
headed to KFC at clementi and we sat there and talked.
Then i had to cab back 'cos i was freaking late.

Rebecca thanks for listening to me complain
and just keep talking and talking and talking.
You're really someone whom i can just blabber everything out of me.
I feel so much better, really. Honestly, it's impossible
to try to not sit with ******** when i'm there 'cos i'll make sure your do.
and really thanks for listening to me! 36 more times to go!

(/EDIT)

Fashion Disaster

You freaking screwed up my hair till i look like a freaking asshole.
I look like some freaking loser i look horrible i look like xiaoqing
wait, even worse than her. But never mind, i'm starting to cool.

Yesterday was gossip girl and TV throughout.
I guess this is one of the down periods of my life, i've got to keep going and i will.
'cos i've got the few cliques to help me(hopefully)
I'm going to push on with God!

Had lunch with family at spaggedies(however you spell it) at Marina
walked around later and then had my icecream :)
Then we headed home, i'm so freaking annoyed.

i don't need to know your opinions okay,
you have no other decision to decide what's coming out of me
or how i'm supposed to look like. Don't you think by
saying what you said is mean? I'm intimidated by it okay.
Calling someone something that they aren't(i think) is intimidating
and can easily cause depression and to be mentally unstable for your information.
You've been irritating me since the start of the year and honestly to tell you
you're an annoying freak who doesn't care about how other people feel
or if not you think they're okay with your rude comments about them.
You think that you're perfect you've got no flaws at all(yea right)
but just incase you haven't waken up from reality, not a single human on earth
is perfect(fyi) You're so assumptious thinking that the other party likes you back
but well, NO. So stop assuming that we or whatsoever do.
I'm going to tolerate your idiotic acts for the last time

1000 times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me wanna run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black

Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending

I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But, love remains the same

EXAMSAREOFFICIALLYOVERDUDEZXZ

Tzeli's nice place, Lunch, Bus to Lan, Didn't play lan, Cabbed to my place,
Rockband, Superhero Movie, Fetch 6 more guys over, Madness rockband,
Bomberman with Tzeli, some weirdo movie, Off they go.

That's a short description of yesterday :) It was super duper fun and stuff.
After exam, we(Greg, Hongting, Adriel, Tzeli, Rebecca)
headed over to tzeli's place to get her phone.
Her place is freaking huge and it's really nice(mega)
Later, we bus-ed to West coast market to eat(drink)
then we headed over to the lan place to meet the rest but it was full.
So, we cabbed over to my place. Played rockband, but we weren't in madness mood.
We created our band, Ghostbusters! Consisting of Bustyheartzxzxzxz,
amzinoob? and amzi(i can't recall). We decided to watch Superhero movie.
It's damn sick and damn gay okay. Went off to fetch the guys over
Xingyi, Jonathan, Joshua, Joel, Leonard and Brendan.
they then played Rockband vs them :) They aren't that bad actually.
Later, Tzeli and i went to play Bomberman on the computer!
I can't believe we actually got some entertainment out of it okay.
But it was fun, really :) Then we stopped and went to watch some weird movie.
Tzeli's mum came already and then the rest started leaving at around 7.
Thanks guys for making my day!

I dreamed about my wallet last night 'cos i thought i lost it but i found it!
Monday is out with classmates to watch eagle eye!

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Great depression

Maths paper was as usual, pretty much killer.
But it was much much better than Maths paper 1(duh)
Science was pretty alright, i'm on the neutral side :)
After the papers, went opp to buy bubble tea with Rebecca!
Saw 14 and we quickly headed towards it. Michelle, and Pris Lim. came on too!
Alighted with Lim and followed her to buy her Mr bean.
She's super duper ultra funny and cute(haha) She ran for the mrt like nuts
but in the end she missed it, hahahha :D
Called mum to pick me up from redhill.

Oh my goonies, Old Navy arrived already! Mum's going to order again
so it means more clothes(whoopy) Rumours that Joe jonas and Taylor Swift
Broke up! Never liked them as a couple either.
People, 1 MORE FREAKING DAY TO ROCKBAND!

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Okay, i'm super excited for tomorrow to come. Why?
'Cos it'll be a freaking ONE day to rockband madness at my place.
I feel so guilty, i went to play rockband today :O
I was supposed to play the computer(cooking dash) but suddenly my screen
started flashing(like wth?) yea, tried restarting and tried to play cs.
my screen started flashing again! Wanted to play dota but i decided not to.
Walked passed the drums and i got so tempted okay, so i went to play!
I was so freaked out when my tv had the dot dot dot stuff and i ran out of the room.
But then the game came out so, thank goodness! Played until 3 and
i mastered expert for Maps(yay me!) and i tried hard for
Are you gonna be my girl but i almost died, which sucked.

Went for dental and it was super fast. Last appointment with my
relief doctor :( Oh well, doesn't matter! I'm going back with my old doctor.
I did green and purple again(i think) I should have done Red and greeen!
Christmas! 'Cos my next appointment is like 30th December?
I'm watching MTV now, chart attack! Rihanna's fornt part of Disturbia MV
is scary okay and freaky and just weird. I can't believe chua thinks
Now or Never is nice. The part where Vanessa H. Pops out is freaking gay(duh)
My sister and i were like wth and were laughing like madness.
btw, i finally got the sheets for Fall for you!

Well, 8 papers down 4 more to go. Go brah go brah!
I've seriously got to cram D&T big time.
2 DAYS TO ROCKBAND!

The perfect words never crossed my mind
'Cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me, screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me

All I wanted just sped right past me
But I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out

There you are, standing right in front of me
There you are, standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away, you leave me naked
Hold me close, 'cause I need you to guide me to safety

No, I don't wanna wait forever
No, I don't wanna wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath
You are my signal fire
The only resolution and the only joy
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes
"Signal Fire" - Snow Patrol

Maths paper was a total killer. Were they trying to burst our brains?
They should have identified the mistake earlier.
I went to do it then they said there was a mistake! I'm so angry, argh.
Literature, didn't study but i wrote crap throughtout the whole paper.
Ended 25 mins earlier and i was stoning and stuff.

Got dental later, what colour should i choose?
sometimes, i feel like walking away.
sometimes, i regret ever talking to you.
sometimes, i just want to be silent forever

Blake Lively's dog's cute man:)

So i didn't study lit, but who cares. It's cramming session tomorrow.
I did a few maths exercises! There's UGLY BETTY TONIGHT ON STAR WORLD!
and and and THERE'S THE NOOOOOOOOOOSE! :D

Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge and just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Love bug again
Hopeless head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
With this love bug again

3 days to rockband!
Chinese paper was freaking screwed! I totally guessed every single thing
especially for page two, cloze passage. I totally didn't know any of the answers.
Well, i expected this though. Doesn't matter to me at all 'cos it's JUST chinese.

After papers, went to Anchorpoint with Duckwai! Something happened
but i was over reacting :D Heh, then duck kept reflecting the light using the knife
against me and my neck got so sensitive! She used that to threaten me!
She told me something and why didn't you tell me earlier! I feel so bad for
coming in between la! Went to ikea and walked around and we were laughing like
madness man! Then i went back home and my mum came to fetch me from SPC.
My leg freaking hurts when i went to bathe. It ain't drying up either, the wound.
yuck yuck yuck! Well, off to study for literature!

Don't say it's easy, the hardest part is leaving

Papers were pretty fine today. It was still manageable:)
Tomorrow is killer day 'cos Chinese Paper 2 is tomorrow! Like, Freak out now!
Before the 2nd paper, i fell down and now there's this freaking huge scratch
at my knee and it hurts! It started bleeding on the way back home.
After the paper, went back with duckwai! She made me miss 14 and 33!
Hahaha, but it's okay. 'Cos she's duckwai! Got mum to pick me up from redhill
Then we went to the post office to send out the items.
I pasted the stamps which i think is super fun!

Mum's ordering F21 again and then old navy :D
I want this super cool dress from old navy. Forever 21 is overpriced!
So many nice items but soooo overpriced, bleah.

Whoever who wants to see some scenes of HSM 3 go
http://www.celebrity-gossip.net/celebrities/hollywood/high-school-musical-3-a-behind-the-scenes-look-208149/#blog

Not many pictures, but oh well :D

Jesus is all i need

Church was fine, i just felt really lethargic and horrible and also hungry.
Bought the green thingy with the rice thingy and i felt better.
Went to cold storage at Paradiz bought beef and snacks :D
Went to Hard Rock for lunch, we were supposed to go Sun with Moon
but decided on Hard Rock in the end. Bought the same and i'm freaking full.
I feel like vomiting right now, ate the brownies. It was theeee best.

Yesterday went to meet Joshua, Tzeli, Hongting and Rachel to study at JE library.
Rebecca was there before but she left. Later Tzeli and I decided to go down and study.
Bought the drink and the Potato, we did manage to study until we started talking:)
Decided to buy Chunks of Chicken! And chunks of Potato again and
Hongting, Joshua and Rachel came down and joined us.
Then we didn't manage to study already, hahahah :D
Came home and then at night watched The Ring(American Version)
Which wasn't that scary so i was pretty fine.

I Intend to watch Ju-on2 later got to recap the story.
But i'll only watch it after i study a lil bit of History

You washed away my sins

Mega TV-"marathon" last night.
Watched The channel 8 show at 9pm.
Disgusting okay, i couldn't stand the part where he was going to cut her abdomen.
Then i watched Ugly betty and Super sweet 16 at the same time.
Ugly betty episode was really funny :D
After that i watched Unfabulous and Ugly betty at the same time and then
i watched the moment of truth and Bugs life aaha.
I couldn't stand it anymore, so i went to sleep.

Woke up and i decided to try to use my samsung phone and it's working:D
But i decided to use back the Sony Ericsson phone.
I've got tuition later then i'm meeting the rest at JE library.
I want to go for the Chanel Spring/Summer 2009 runway show in Paris.
Here's some pictures that i found hilarious and nice :D


(Emma Watson)


Look at the guy taking picture with Zac Efron.

8 O Daughter of Babylon, doomed to destruction,
happy is he who repays you
for what you have done to us-

9 he who seizes your infants
and dashes them against the rocks.

To all those who didn't exactly believe me that you were
supposed to be happy when you throw a baby against the rock
here's the verse :)