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Wednesday, December 31, 2008


i don't need you anymore

Yesterday dental really sucked.
Had to wait about 50 mins before i went in
& then i have to put rubber bands from now on which
hurt real bad, seriously. I definitely want to take off my braces fast.
They really want my teeth to shift fast, i have triple stuff in my mouth.
Which means triple pain, the wire got tightened, i have rubber bands
horizontally & vertically across my teeth.
Anyway, after that, went to pick my cousins up & we went bowling
@ chevrons! Without bumper somemore, we came up with
dumb ways just to make us hit pins. There were many pros
around us, so we pretty much sucked! Second game, & my hand started to hurt
real bad + the pain in my teeth. Double pain!!!
Shuttled to IMM & had dinner & had awesome desert.
Walked around & went back home.

Today, met the CLASS CLIQUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Awesome, really miss them! Went to watch bedtime stories.
+++++ my braces hurt real bad, so i didn't eat much.
After the movie, we went lan!!!!! Awesome, felt relly dizzy playing
Half life. CS was really fun, hahhha. Team fortress was wth?!
Played CS for the last 20mins then we headed back home.
Guys went to KFC while i went to taka then to paragon
to get Starbucks then met my cousins! Bought Auntie Annes
and mrt-ed back home. & they're sleeping over
with my brother's friends. Chaotic night.

School's starting & i haven't even gotten my books.


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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Eye of the Tiger

Rockband2!!!!! Awesome, played with bro+sis.
Unlocked a whole lot of songs, Michelle, there's a song that you'll confirm know.
Had beef last night, awesome. There's dental today, most prob. going chinatown
with cousins + i must eat the desert if i do go.
Then bowling at night with them, must must must!!

+ I really miss TZELI & REBECCA! Not to mention the Choir Clique.


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Monday, December 29, 2008


Womanizer

hehehe, in 12 hours i have piano Sigh, i really dislike piano.
I don't see a purpose in why i'm learning it either.
TYVM Michelle for the songs! 've been searching for Womanizer
for a v.v. long long time! I can't believe 2008 is going to end.

Found these 2 pics of my couzzz on my phone.


I ttly love his shirt, it says "The Last perfect Man"
& it's Homer simpsons on the shirt, awesome.



If i'm not wrong, they're leaving on the 3rd!
V. fast.


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Sunday, December 28, 2008


With everything, With everthing
We will shout for your glory
With everything, With everything
We will shout forth your praise

Our hearts they cry,
Be glorified
Be lifted high above all names
For you our King
Wih everything
We will shout forth your Praise


today pretty much sucked except for youth.
Youth service was thanksgiving & it was really nice.
The candles & everything +++ they sang with everything!
After that, went to Waraku for lunch. Didn't go bowling in the end
Stayed home & i slept. Sigh, v. tired. I really want to go out!

(edit)
i don't know what i've been doing the past few hours.
i'm v. bored!!!!!! Tomorrow i have piano & dental on Tuesday.
Wednesday, MAYBE cc might be coming over.
Thursday, "visit" my paternal grandma & new years lunch with maternal side.
Friday, school opens. Come to think of it, i haven't gotten my books, eek.
+++++++++++++++ when will the damn timetable come out!
Stupid screwed up school, the more i think about fairfield.
The more i hate it, seriously.

Once i hit 21 & have enough money i'm ttly going to migrate to NY/London
ain't going to stay in boring Singapore.
(/edit)


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Saturday, December 27, 2008


Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone


the past few days have been really tiring+awesome.
Plus, i ate alot the past few days! But it's all good good food!

Friday, 26th December
zomgosh, first time i ever slept so late okay.
Slept at 430 & woke up at 9. Then the rest started to wake up.
Played abit then we decided to head to town. Went to wisma first
walked around & i saw Baoyue & Dion, hahha.
Then, we went to far east & walked around alot & we had lunch.
Awesome milk tea & had carls. The rest ate some chicken thing.
Walked around some more & i was pretty tired, nicky too, haha.
then we went to wheelock & walked around while my sister went to Isetan.
After that, we went to BK @ liat towers & then my cousin went for her christmasparty.
Then, we got my mum to pick us up! Came back & then played rockband.
Finally, my brother came back & he got the ROCKBAND 2!!! AWESOMEEEEE
Cousin came back & then we played somemore & watched 27 dress &
we slept at 4 again!

Saturday, 27th december
woke up @ 1130 & then we headed to marina square @ around 4
Wanted to bowl but it was over-priced+no lanes.
So we bus-ed to Plaza Sing & we played Time crisis
then we walked around, sister left for some party then
we had dinner @ carls & sat there for quite awhile 'cos we were so full.
came back around 8-ish & then we watched a lil bit of saturday night live
then my dad fetched them home. Ack, i'm so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, tomorrow, we're going to bowl after church!!

Macbook pictures w/ them!!!
+ I miss the choir clique+2A v. much! C.C may be coming over!!!!


(D+N+H)


(Awesome)

(Deborah + Chiara!)

(D+C+N)


(H+N+C+D)


(D+C+H)




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Friday, December 26, 2008


Beyond words

zomg, i'm still awake. We played rockabnd, watched scary movie 4
& watched America's next top model then friends then heroes
& now we're watching What happens in vegas.

& maybe we're going out tomorrow, hahaha. awesome hardcore "sleep"over


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Thursday, December 25, 2008

Decode

Hehehehe, today was pretty awesome!
Church service started an hour later! Wore something new, hahah.
Bleah, the "musical" was too musical-y. My attention span was 00000000.
I don't know how i managed to kill time man.
Anyway, after the service, went to cold storage & buy stuff!!!!
PANETTONE? FOR $3! DIRT FREAKING CHEAAAP.
I waiting for the pre marie chocolate one's price to drop like mad.
After that, we went to suntec to have lunch, ate at a indo restaurant
since the maid was with us :) Okay, food wasn't bad, it was quite good!
Muhahaha, my family agreed that next sunday we'll eat at a jap restaurant!
AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
It's either sun with moon, waraku or tonkatsu? tonkatchi?
Anyway, we went to carrefour & zOMGOSH!!!!! I found my fav.
potato pork instant noodles, the best instant mee man.
But it's $4? for 4? packets, who cares. It taste good!
Came back home, used the computer got bored, played rockband
then i decided to go walk with my mum! Walked along the
park connector then we went to mount echo park to see the nice nice houses.
Came back & shortly after, my cousins came over!
Had dinner & now they're playing rockband. My other 2 cousins are coming over!
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONEEEEEEEEEEEEE


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mindless thoughts

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

remember, santa might not exist but Jesus+God does!
Christmas isn't all about receiving presents but it's to celebrate
the birth of Jesus!

Christmas eve dinner was nice. Pasta was super duper awesome,
chicken pie, nachos & everything. V. awesome feeling.
Tried white wine & drank beer. HAHAHA, didn't feel anything.
We started playing poker & bridge & asshole taidi.
I was king throughout & my cards were good.
It's either 3 As or 3 2s, so obviously i keep winning, hahaha.
After dessert, we played speed+heart attack. Stress man, but i won all.
Winning streak!!! HAHAHAH

Later we started playing those bang bang bang who died games, dumb man.
Anyway, cousins are sleeping over tomorrow
+ Church's outreach service tomorrow too! I think it's time i visited
Sephora again 'cos my nail polish are starting to chip out, kekkee.



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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Cheated Hearts

i just woke up + my whole body's aching(sad)
It's raining too, which is ttly awesome!! I hope it'll rain alternate days.
Can't stand the hot weather in Singapore.

hmmm, i can't wait for dinner tonight! I wanna play with my cousin.
The super adorable one which blew all my candles on my b'day. HAHA,
Yes, v. adorable.

I want so many things for christmas!!!!!!
1. Macbook Pro
2. All Sims 2 expansion packs
3. BAGG
4. Sims 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. New phone!!
6. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
7. More clothes!
8. Counter Strike(hehehhe)
9. My own room!APARTMENT HOUSE! WHATEVER
10. New rockband drum set(it's dying)
11. Rockband 2!
12. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

I know no one can fulfill any of my wishes above
except for my parents, hhahaa.
zomgosh, this post is so random


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Tuesday, December 23, 2008


Super awesome Dessert

I want to go back to Chinatown complex for the super awesome dessert!!!
Was supposed to go out w/ yeewei+rebecca but in the end
my mum was like NO! Go out with your cousins, so i did.
Went to the converse sale, i was put off by the horrible hot weather
in the end, i bought 3 shoes! Awesomeeeeee, i spent $70.
Then we got kind of lost then we made one big round then we headed to ikea.
Had lunch at anchorpoint then we walked around Ikea, had chicken wings
then went to dawson to buy groceries! I bought Sky flakes, Instant mee!!! &
this super nice biscuit with chocolate+sprinkles.

Tomorrow i'm meeting my relatives(maternal) for christmas eve dinner!
My aunt's cooking pasta, shiok 'cos she's from italy :D:D:D:D
& maybe i'm going Malaysia + having sleepover.
I just realised school starts next week.


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Sunday, December 21, 2008


There is no height or depth
Neither life nor death
That can take me from all that I find

Here now in Your Glory Lord

No other powers or love
The things of now or to come
There's nothing on earth in this life
That could ever separate us Lord

Your Love is never ending
To your hands we surrender
Where all our sins are washed away
Your Grace beyond reason
Has paid for our freedom
We're made alive in You

We run to Your Throne
Where we belong
Every heart will sing
That Jesus is Lord
Casting all else aside
For the joy of our Christ
Let Your Glory fall
Our hearts are filled with Your Fire

No other powers or love
The things of now or to come
There's nothing on earth in this life
That could ever separate us Lord


today was so ttly tiring!!!! I got all cranky 'cos my legs were seriously killing me.
Anyway, went to church to have christmas caroling then went back
& then we followed my dad to hard rock while my mum went to fetch
our cousins. Parked @ forum & then they arrived yadadada, ordered alot
was freaking full, ate the brownies! Dad&Brother went to the marina barrage
whereas the rest went to walk around!
We went from forum to wheelock to shaw to wisma to taka.
So tiring okay, then we had to walk back to forum to get the car
& then we went back home. Cousins came over, we played rockband
watched Big bang theory & gay youtube videos!
Waiting for my other cousin to come back to have our sleepover, awesome!

I might be going for the converse sale, yay.



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Friday, December 19, 2008


God will always be there

HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY, MY "AWESOME" FAYE!

Camp today was totally awesome okay! Freaking awesome food, ttly awesome.
Went to campsite & had prata for breakfast, nt bad at all.
Then i saw Jonathan! We were like infront of each other & staring
at each other, hahahaha. Ttly like wth?!?!?! Then we had
Worship, sermon, discussion & then we had the long awaited super ttly awesome
food race which ttly rocked awesome best man. 5 people from each group
were supposed to drink 2.5 l of water & i tell you, it was funny.
Our stomach's felt darn swirly whirly. We were 2nd last but thank goodness
we managed to chiong for the bus that everyone got on. Alighted at ngee ann
& we quickly asked random people to take pictures with us. Then amoy street
brought us down 'cos we were like wth is amoy street. Went to maxwell then
then to amoy & we had mutton liver? soup, sounds disgusting but it's really good.
Then we chionged to Tiong bahru market & we were supposed to have
Pig's stomach but thank goodness, there wasn't anymore. So we had bak khu teh?
instead which was the best i've tasted man & from then on
we all started slacking & we couldn't be bothered to chiong anymore.
Had fried oysters there which were really, woah. Then 3 groups(inclu. mine)
headed to chinatown to have good pastry & superb, awesome, ttly awesome
nice dessert. Then we were waaaaaaaay behind time, but who cares.
then we went to sunshine plaza to have wanton noodles then we headed back
& by the time we reached back, it was 7+ we were 1.5h late. Last station
was army food rations, yes, all the horror stories from my brother.
But the pasta one wasn't that bad, the glutinous one sucked man.
Then we had finale night which was damn funny, my group owns.
Then they brought out a freaking nice chocolate cake for december babies!
AWEEESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE, it was really really really good
& worship before ending was really nice!

(EDIT)
20 december 2008

zomgosh, camp is finally over!!!!!!! I'm still having muscle aches from yest.
opps, i kind of fell asleep while typing this too. Anyway, Today was break camp.
Awesome man, they printed out pictures for us, v. nice. Tomorrow we'll
be seeing each other again, how weird. Okay, i enjoyed this camp alot
& timothy was my angel, hahahah. Went to zion road which has superb food
to buy the super nice char kuey tiao??!?!?(My chi. sucks)
Then bought dessert & went home to eat. Then i slept for 5 hours, awesome.
It's good to be home!

Find me here, in this place of God
Son of God, Saving grace
At this hour, all my days
Breathe on me, Breathe on me

Morning Star, Shine your light
As i walk, through this life
God of power, God of might
Breathe on Me, Breathe on me

Forever, you are my reason for living
Merciful Savior unending, Breathe on me






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Thursday, December 18, 2008


Tea party sessions

zomgosh, i'm finally back from camp. Act., i'm supposed to sleep over
but since my house is so nearby, i come home to bathe+sleep, awesome.
Everyone was really nice & stuff! Kind of awkward with my group at first
but i got used to it & man, their one enthu bunch. Dhinesh esp.
the most hyper person i've ever seen. It's even more hyper than me
when i was doing the stupid olympic jump with Rachel.
Anyway, we played a water bomb game & combined with i forgot what's the name
Our combined group ttly punk'd them man. We faked that a cardboard box
was our structure & the the people went to steal it but act. we had our real
structure hidden behind, AWESOME! Everyone fell for it, & the last min
we set it up, hahahha. Ttly the best man. Then they had wash up
but my sister & i went back home then 'cos i knew dinner would most prob.
be sucky so we went to the market & buy shiok food
came back & everyone was like woaaah.
Then we had some pyramid stacking & i group was really zai?
Night games & that's when we really got closer. Man, we were like wth
when we found out the answer 'cos we act guessed it correctly all along
but then, we off-tracked somehow. HAHAHA, Anyway it's awesome
Tomorrow's food race, can't wait man.

+ I saw our school BB boys doing sharity gift box, ahahhaha.


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Wednesday, December 17, 2008


Take me to Paradise

tyvm, every single word that your have written
means alot to me. tyvvm, i'm feeling much better.

I didn't know my cousins were coming to Singapore today
nobody informed us, so we rushed over to pick them up.
zomgosh, my cousin's voice is damn low now+tall+freaking thin.

Sigh, i'm going for the camp tomorrow, 'cos i feel v. bad
to my friends. 'cos i sort of agreed to go. BUT, i'm not going
for the rest of the days. Besides, i don't see what i'm going to do there
'cos i have to stay in shade most of the time & my garment can't get dirty.

i'm really like that like that, please.


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I'm just so confused

None of your ever did care nor loved me, never really did.
I'm just some idiot, stupid, annoying, girl living in this house.
Your never did even care about me, your always showed favoritism.
People always say, your parents scold you 'cos they care for you.
But not for me, your never ever thought about how i felt.
How much pressure i have on me, how much stress i actually have.
I have to live up to your dumb standard all the time, just one stupid mistake
and i get hell everytime. What am i to your? Am i even your own daughter?
Well, i don't think so. I don't feel one bit loved by your. Everytime,
when it's not my fault & it's her your blame me me me!
You know how annoying it is? I can remember every beating i get from your so
clearly, not a single one of them is unclear. Yes, i'm a freaking idiot,
i got into combined & you don't like it 'cos combined is for stupid asses right?
Just like me, i'm stupid, i'm the stupidest person in this family.
I'm such a burden your aren't i? Because of my stupid burn,
your have to keep bringing me to the doctor. I know you hate it.
I'm an embarrassment to your aren't i? & because i watch Gossip girl,
means i'll take drugs in the future, get into trouble right?
Yes, i'm wrong & your are always right. I my as well be your freaking servant.
Sometimes, i really want to just commit suicide & see if your really care.
i really want to run away from this freaking home.


tyvm michelle for yesterday. I really needed to tell someone how i felt.
Last night, i kept thinking about alot of stuff, i just couldn't sleep.
I really need my closest friends around me now, & please bare with me.


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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

You were God from the outset
Powerful and creative
You who saw us here before you called
All the stars and the earth to existence
You are God you are Holy
History is your story
You, who was and is, And who forever will be
God we live for your Glory
So we will run
All together our hearts aflame
With a fire that can't be tamed
Our God all Glory to your name, Jesus

yesss, i'm back from school+ikea!
Choir was kind of waste of time, after choir, we took
jumpshots with Allison+Faith which sort of failed. But it was really fun!
Then, Yeewei & Michelle & I bus-ed to ikea & we waited
for awhile 'cos the que was amazingly long, longest i've seen so far.
Y & M were reading the Seventeen USA that i brought.
Thinking about it, i forgot to pass it to M!!!!!!!
Anyway, bought our food then bought icecream! Then we went walking around
ZOMGOSH, this was the part where we went sick, disgusting & freaking high!
OOOOH, Y & I were taking a picture when suddenly some small girl
came up so we quickly asked her to look at the camera & we got her!
AWESOMEEEE, she's so adorable. Stayed there for quite long
then we went to a corner & did stupid videos, which made us laugh like mad.
It was ttly stupid+random+dumb not to mention embarrassing.
After all the madness, we walked to Anchorpoint & sat at KFC and talked
then we headed back. Thanks girls for being such dearies,
it was awesome today!
Pity Rebecca couldn't join us, it would be a ttly woah thing if she did.



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Monday, December 15, 2008


Gamble everything for Love

i'm finally backkkk! For once, i managed to study!
Met Mibrah at Redhill then we MRT-ed to CityHall.
Ate lunch at Marina's food court, yummmm.
Once again, i spilled my drink(curses)!
Walked to Esplanade to study! Ages since i've went to the library, sigh.
Studied till 3.30+ then we headed to the rooftop & kept taking jumpshots
I, obviously, owned at it, hahaha. V.nice view+ we were above
our waiting room place during the WISC. Sure brings back memories!
Then, we walked to Suntec & bought paper, duper cheap.
Then we went to buy Auntie Annes and we mrt-ed back.
Zomg, my shoes were killing me man.

Had fun fun fun while studying! Uploaded pictures already,
was editing but got chased off the computer by my mum.
Will bump this post up, most probably in a few hours with pictures!

(EDIT)
Pictures from airport-trip with michoobrah.








(Elmo show)





(/EDIT)


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Righteous, Ruler of the heavens
Holy holy our God, Sovereign
Lord of all creation
Holy holy our God

Every tribe and tongue
Lift your voice as one
He is greatly to be praised

Sing to the Lord, Oh my soul
Let the heavens, Shout for joy
Great is our God, Great is our God


I'm so tired, slept at 3am+ 'cos i have no idea why
but i couldn't sleep! I tried to exercise, hug my soft toys
but nothing worked, but then somehow, i fell asleep.

I'm meeting michelle in about 55mins, can't wait.
We're going Esplanade to study + I can't believe i lost all my hol. homework!
Come to think of it, i really really really miss Shanghai! & all the friends there
4 more days till my cousin comes, zomg! & i have to wait long long
till GG comes out in January, bawl. It's getting more exciting!

Rebeccaaaaaa, our mushroom soup date!


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Sunday, December 14, 2008


It's a little too Late

It was raining when we went to church, somehow the umbrella jabbed
the corner of my eye(ouch) I was so afraid, 'cos suddenly the skin
there felt v. thin. Thank goodness nothing happened.
Went for camp briefing & i realised it's 4 days instead of 3
so i totally changed my mind on going, 'cos HELLOOO!
I DON'T WANT TO WASTE MY TIME THERE, finally
a week where i can relax withou any tuition/piano &
it's all ruined with the youth camp. I told my sister i did'n' want to
go since i haven't paid & apparently my name isn't in the list of campers
then she didn't bother, so i told my mum & basically
both of the ttly pissed the hell out of me. Then my brother
talked to me & stuff which made me cry(emotional).
Shouldn't you go for a christian camp when you feel that
you are called to go? rather than being threatened & being forced to.
I don't feel that this camp is my calling & i don't want to go,
i don't feel comfortable around them yet. Why can't my damn family
just understand that i'm not yet in my comfort zone in church?!

Anyway, i still do not intend to go. At the most i just pay them back $25.

Anyway, my family decided to celebrate my b'day+brother's commission
so, i got to chose where we were going to eat which obviously
was Modestos @ vivo. MUSHROOM SOUP, FTW!!!
& then, my dad ate the black ink pasta whereas my brother at
the lobster meat pasta thingy & i ate the usual & my sister+mum
shared some pasta that's pretty awesome+cool. Then we went
to look @ phones. I didn't actually really know that my phone was that pricey
Came back & slept for 3 hours, totally awesome. The weather was nice!
& i want 2A to go out again + i owe some people their jerseys
which i don't know where they are now!(shucks)

& yesterday i talked to Rebecca till quite late!
I'm glad that you're way relaxed now + better! Remember,
you're supposed to go from that emoticon face to the bigbig smiley one!
+ We were talking about steamboats. & tonight i'm having Sukiyaki!
Today = good food! Awesomeeeeeeeee, when my cousins come,
my mum says we'll go Hard Rock! I shall eat beef then, i've been craving
for it for ages!! Rebecca, our IKEA MUSHROOM SOUP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(edit)
I'm really going to study hard for the next few years of my life.
Get a good job & shift to UK then NY!!!!!!! I've decided, i'm def. going to buy
Sims 2 Apartment Life, it looks awesome. Then maybe, i can
get my dad to pay 1/2 for Sims 2 Pets! I can't wait for Sims 3 to come out
next year! Should be pretty awesome+cooooooooool.
In the mean time, i shall start saving for my overseas life!
(/edit)


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Saturday, December 13, 2008


Taken for Granted

I was sim-ing the whole day, v. glad! I used all the GG names 'cos i couldn't
think of any other nicer names, heh. Left home around 4+ for my
brother's commission. It wasn't that bad, the parade square view
is really really awesome, indescribable. At first, we took quite awhile to
spot my brother! Actually he was directly opposite me & i didn't know.
Found out 'cos i took random pictures & decided to zoom in & spotted him.
We got to put their don't-know-what badge thing, took some photos.
Then we went back & then they threw their hats, which was pretty cool
but i didn't manage to catch it with the Canon camera, pity. But my sister
got it in the sony. Yes, my family brought 3 cameras. The big camera
the lumix & the sony. It was pretty cool, parents left for
the good good dinner while my sister & victoria & i went for the "lousy"
dinner, i didn't like it 'cos i don't majority of the food there.
We finished eating even before the other side starting eating.
Waited there for 1.5 hours, saw some ex-fairsians.
My sister's friend & her brother joined us, they're really funny, haha.

Okay, finally, the vip left, so we went to meet my parents.
At first we tried to scare them, but they took too long to come
so we gave up. I'm home now, finally!!!! It was fun using the cool camera.
Hopefully my brother gives it to me, muhahaha. That'll be AWESOME!

Okay, i'm kind of dreading to go for youth camp. Thank goodness
my place is so near the camp so i'm not staying over there, muhaha.
ZOMG, MY COUSIN'S COMING TO SINGAPORE NEXT WEEK!
CAN'T WAIT. ROCKBAND SLEEPOVER, FTW!!!!


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If i could I would


Was just searching the net & found this photo!
I do not own this photo at all
Our PE shirt is so outstanding & i found picture of Allison too!
Here's a link to it, don think she'll want her picture here.
http://www.sas.edu.sg/gallery/08-09/q2/MS/2008-11-24
%20World%20in%20Singapore%20Concert-%20
Advanced%20Band/slides/World%20In%20SIngapore%20COncert%20117.html

There are alot more at the website!

There's no one that i talk to online, bleah.



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Friday, December 12, 2008

Escape from this Afterlife

Yes, i'm back again. I just suddenly thought about my burns.
It just "bam" came right to me, i suddenly thought alot about what the
doctor said. TBH, i'm really scared. I don't even know
how my leg will look like in the future. There's so many things
i must avoid just because of the stupid leg. I can't go out in the sun
i have to be in shade at all possible times. If i hit my leg against something
or just a light knock(apparently) my skin will break = more scars.
I feel so foolish really, i totally regret this whole mess.
I'm just scared that scars start to form & everything. I don't like this at all.
Nobody understands how i feel, seeing your leg disfigured
'cos a stupid mistake that you made. Everything just happens so quickly.
When i hear people squirm and bawl when they just
have a super minor burn i feel like telling them to shut the hell up.
I mean come on, it's nothing serious right? Try putting up
that feeling when you get burn for super long hours. Taking
don't know how many painkillers to prevent it from feeling that pain.
Getting jabs, it sucks completely. Having people stare at you
& everything, looking at you in disgust. Now i really know
how other people feel when people stare at them.
Having freaking liquid flow out 24 hours for 2 stupid long weeks.
& seeing your whole leg just become different.
Sigh, this really ultimately sucks. I'm feeling really emotional now,
I can't keep bottling this, it's just too stressful & frustrating.

I kee thinking that people will laugh at me
& tease me 'cos of my scars. I keep dreaming about it okay.
That's why i'm so scared about next year. Who knows
how horrible my scars may turn out.


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The blind leading the blind

REBECCAAAAAAAAAAAA
See, i'm always so nice, my posts are always you you you!
You poor young girl! DON'T WORRY OKAYY!
You must relax first & calm down okay? Don't take everything
so seriously no matter how important it may be okay?
But of course, don't slack around & do nothing.
I shall buy you a flower or something to cheer you up
& SHHH don't tell anyone about what i do to cheer myself up.
Anyway, you also do it too. Take care okay?

I'm reading manga,'cos that's currently my only source of entertainment
I really want to go out the next few weeks 'cos i have no piano+tuition
sigh, piano is so tough. No more grade 4 fun, every movement
has to be shown gracefully. I just can't do it, i feel so embarrassed
when i do. Come on, non-piano people will laugh at you if you do so.

Like that are making me like that, i just can't help it.
I can't like that nor like that. This is so stupid & dumb
going like that in like that.

(edit)
okay, so suddenly i remembered how cool
the chasing pavement MV was. It's really amazing!
No emoticons(boring) 'cos i'm using the new computer &
even with the firewall, my brother doesn't allow me to download
but i do download(sneaky). Okay, so, tomorrow i'm going for my
brother's don't-know-what-army-dinner-thing. Apparently, it's huge
and stuff but i don't want to goooo! My parents forced sis & i, a pity.
Never mind, i get to see Lee Tsien Long(however you spell his name)
A pity, S R nathan couldn't come. Yes yes, my brother's diner thing
was supposed to have SR nathan. Anyway, i get to see the girl
my brother's asking along. Previously it was my neighbour now some
ex-classmate. I think i've seen her before, ack.
I shouldn't be typing this here! How if my brother finds out, i'm so screwed.
Ahya, who really cares/bothers to read my long post!
I shall delete that before he comes home!

Today was amazing, why? 'Cos i survived the whole day
using the computer!!! Yes, i finished my manga which ttly made me bawl.
Yes, the artist never fails to make me cry everytime i read her manga.
Then, i played my weird games & talked to Rebeca & Yeewei on msn.
Then i decided to go to Habbo to get my penguins & then i met someone
that i haven't talked to in ages. I feel like slapping myself, sigh.
Come to think of it, the only time the full class clique ever went out
was only for lan, v. random i know. I've been thinking & thinking
about weird +random stuff. I really wonder how next year will be.
Those fun fun fun, FC times & the time when we went high on REDBULL!
The guy's faces were so red! HAHAHA, & it's not as if we drank alcohol.
Good times, good times. I want to go lan 'cos i miss CS.
I wonder why people think lan-ing is bad. It's just paying
to use a computer to play games. What's so bad about it!
This is getting to be a really random post. I'm bored so i shall just
type whatever i'm thinking right now.

Rebecca Lau is v. weird! Oh well, i have nothing on my mind
right now. just that i want to def. go out! TZELI & REBECCA,
you two bullies, where's our cold rock outing?!?!?! I still have the voucher!!
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008


Sense of Wonder

REBECCA LAU TUCK WAI,
Hmph, you & your scary things. Please, okay, take note at what i said
in my sms okay? I'm naggy, i know, but i just care okay?
Everyone cares for you, so please okay? But right now, just concentrate
on that okay? I'm trying my best to be subtle, but i don't think it's working.
I LOVE YOU OKAAAAY, YOU WANT TO KILL ME WITH YOUR SMS IS IT?!
Kidding, anyway, I LOVEEEE YOU SO MUCH SO PLEASEE
Here, Kisses for you(i'm not les)

zomg, i'm really bored. zOMG is boring 'cos i can't get the item i want
though i have 31 of it, i have to start from scratch in finding 5 of it for my quest.
At least they added more quests for us, Runescape? i don't know what to say,
i have no idea what to do on runescape. P.P? Boring la, all my ranks went down
v. saddening so i decided to take a break from it.

I can't seem to stop thinking about like that
Everytime, before i sleep i think about like, this sucks.
Somehow, you could say, that's the only way i can sleep.
i ttly am like that about like that. I just can't stop like that-ing.
If only like that actually did like that, maybe that way like that will like that.
I think i'm so stupid, really, why of all things must like that like that like that!!




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