Kith Cafe after church with Kenneth, Usual-dim-sum-with-the-siblings lunch on Monday,
Class Gathering at Kai's place with the hugeass pizzas from Peperonis ,
Farewell dinner at Chikuwa Tei for the brother, Short-Tea-and-Catch-Up time with Allinda.
"your Love helps me to understand God's love for me"
Dim-sum-for-post-exams-celebration lunch, Shopping-that-killed-my-legs with Kenneth,
Yummy-Epic-laughing dinner with my favourite girls
People think that i'll be okay 'cos they think that i'm a strong girl.
I'm really not one. I pretend to be one, in hope that when i keep telling myself that i'm fine,
i'll come to believe it one day. But this is just self-destruction.
I'm really not okay. The numbness that i'm feeling is starting to fade away and
i start feeling all these emotions that were bound up in me.
A mixture of anger, depression, emptiness, grief, all at one go.
Anger: that no one understands how i feel, the words that people say
to comfort me just make me more angry.
Depression: Everyone's just leaving me slowly one by one,
starting from the closest people around me.
Emptiness: It's like something or someone just sucked the life out of me.
They took away something that was there but never seemed to be there
and i just feel empty, having a void inside me.
Grief: Mum's and grandpa's passing.
I feel like i'm just going to break any moment.
"The most difficult thing, it seems, is being able to admit when your love is going nowhere.... I was just way more into them than they were to me, and there is always a certain amount of pain in admitting that. You don’t want to confront this person and tell them, “Hey, look at all of these nice things I do and efforts I make for you, and you don’t do any of these things in return,”
because it is a sad thing to do"
The day and its trouble shall come
I know that Your strength is enough
Life doesn't stop for anybody
