you make it seem so easy.

"She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart"

i've got the most awesome friends beside me
& of course, my Comforter, my Healer, my Daddy God.

"The only thing that hurts more than a broken heart is knowing,
if you had the choice to do it all over again, you would."

I really don't know what i'm supposed to do now.

One day you are important, the next you're worthless.
Another day they're nice, and the next they give you the cold shoulder.

Ironic don't you think? I just find it funny, extremely funny how it's like that.
Or maybe i'm just trying to deceive myself 'cos i'm trying to avoid all this crap.
It hurts so much, like being stabbed in the chest umpteen times.
Everywhere you go, memories come rushing back and it hits you.
I always get my hopes up and then get disappointed again and again by everyone.

I just want to run away, get out of this country and forget everything.
Go shopping, sight-seeing, meet new people, learn new stuff.
And hopefully, just hopefully, slowly that pain will fade away.

this has become my ranting blog eh?
I don't know who reads this but i hope you respect the stuff i say here.

I find it funny how people can seem so trustable
and they deceive you completely in a blink of an eye.

It has been ages since i last cried over this.
I couldn't hold it in any longer, i just couldn't.
Sometimes, we just can't continue faking that smile and pretend all is fine.

It's these nights that keep me awake.