27 December 2012.

To the greatest mum on earth, a fighter, a loving sister, a caring aunt, a friend.

I love you very much mummy and i'm glad you're free from suffering.

It's been 8 years that you've fought cancer and you've conquered it in Christ.

I hope you're having fun in heaven, though i know you definitely are.

You can eat all you want with the feast laid out for you.

You can have all the riches in the world where gold in heaven is merely just tiles on the floor.

Best part, i know you're having lots of fun talking to Daddy God. 

I'm envious that you are up there while i'm here on earth.

But i'll miss you dearly, your memories your life will forever be in my heart.

and i want to tell everyone about the battle you fought so bravely.

"A heart that has been placed, cannot be easily moved."

A lot of things have happened over the past few days.

So here's just a summary:

Monday, 17 December.

Caught the Hobbit with Kenneth & Julvin.

This show isn't for those who've not watched Lord Of The Rings before.

'cos 1. You'll find it boring 2. You won't have that thrill when you see familiar characters.

3. You're pretty much deprived.

After the movie, went down to Gleneagles 'cos mum was admitted.

It's daylight robbery, the cost of staying in a freaking 4-bedder is like staying in

a 2/Single Bedder in a public hospital. It's daylight robbery i swear.

Tuesday, 18 December

Braced myself for the morning and night shift to take care of my mum.

I swear i wanted to die through the night. The chair was unbelievably killing my back.

Couldn't take it so i went to the ward lobby & slept on the sofa.

So basically i was up the whole night trying to find a good position to sleep.
and just when i find a good position, my mum needs something. sigh.

Anyway, i want to thank those who've showered this family with so much love and concern,
i really appreciate it. Thank you to all the friends who've stayed by me virtually :')
I appreciate it so much. 

오직 그대만 aka Always/Only You

It's my second time watching it. It's heartbreaking yet heartwarming at the same time.

Please watch it if you're free. You're not going to regret, trust me.

CTs are finally over! I've conquered this battle with none other than Jesus!
It's amazing how calm I felt for every paper and came out feeling great.
Thank You Daddy God for blessing me with the wisdom i needed.
Thank You Daddy God for calming my raging storms.

Had a short but blessed bonding time with the classmates over brunch at FFT
and a short LAN session. Decided to pamper myself by getting my H&M dress(yay)

"Let now the weak, say 'i have strength'" - Saviour King by Hillsong.
Had a H2H talk with mummy after i came home and i couldn't help but just break down.
The moment i started praying for her, i trembled as i spoke and i couldn't take it.
At the same time, Saviour King was playing at the background and the lyrics were so empowering.
"You asked Your Son to carry this, the heavy cross, our weight of sin" 
It really made me think. Jesus, a sinless man, a man who didn't know sin, gave up His life,
suffered so much, being pierced and all, but never once did He complain.
In fact, he still asked for forgiveness from God for those that spat at him.
Would you do that? No. I wouldn't either. But Jesus did, and with a loving heart.

And I just stopped talking to God just now. Cried my heart out to him.
He's the best listener, the best comforter, the best friend ANYONE could ask for.
Trust me, i vouch for that. Thank you Papa God :')

and thank you, to everyone who has shown concern, who has given me
encouragement. You know who you are *winks*.I'm very thankful for people like you.
Thank you.

"Everything was just fine. You were content in every sense of the word. Then one day there was a knock at the door and it was your old friend, Feelings. "

1 paper down, 3 more to go!

After RFA paper, i was tricked and surprised by house clique! 

Was so touched and surprised, I actually cried. These girls are such sweety pies.

Thank you Trisha for successfully tricking me too!

minus some extra(s) here and there and missing some people too.

She came over last minute and watched Friends w benefits. Teehee. 

It was quite funny how I couldn't be bothered to sleep past 12am.

SLEEP COMES FIRST. Woke up to a bunch of birthday wishes.

Was so touched by everyone's meaningful wishes :')

Cabbed to church cos i missed my bus.

FIRST THING IN THE MORNING AND I SEE MY BESTEST. 

What more a greater way than to start off your birthday with your best friend?

And even better, in the house of God!

to everyone who has made my 18th a very enjoyable and loving one.

It was the most simple but most enjoyable 18th celebration.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. 

You know that moment when you look back and you're like, "what was i thinking"

I hate myself for this one thing, for always falling back and having to crawl back out in tears.