To be Loved, or to love

whoopy, i'm finally back! Today was yet another awesome day
but not as awesome as backstage at esplanade :)
reached HCI @ 830+ waited for Yeewei & Rebecca to come.
Only 3 boys came at first, then later all the basses came
except for Joel whereas there was only 1 tenor, chen chian.
Let me tell you, he is one brave boy okay. But of course,
we called Joel + joshua to come! Lucas came later though
so there were 4 tenors. Ydadadada, schools performed,
we thought we screwed up 'cos we were so freaking soft
but in the end Ms lim just said small in no.s but v. nice sound
you people cheat me whatever yea.
After that, Rebecca, Yeewei, Joshua, Joel + me bus-ed
to coronation plaza and were about to go to serene c.
but decided to bus to holland instead(Waste $$)
But nvm, we had a fun time on the bus, stupid Joshua and
his sicebu place(Whatever it's called) Ate at BK then chatted
Y + Joel + Me ""sneaked"" to cold rock
and ate Lemon+Choc mint+GUMMY BEARS @ cold rock!
Yeewei's really funny she cares so much about the gummy bears
but in the end she chomped off their heads. Headed back to BK,
chatted awhile and then Y+ 2Js+ me took 106.
Y went back but i followed the 2 Js to raffles to meet Xingyi
then we went to Cine, wanted to watch movie but was ex.
So, we went to E2Max to play lan, v. much fun but i didn't own today.
After that, i rushed home 'cos i thought i would be screwed.
Thank you girls+ guys for the fun fun time

I knew it would happen and it did. Maybe reading
that has totally made me like that & i think it's a good thing.
I don't feel as if there's a neccasary need to like that
i rather chose none of the above be cause both will cause you much pain
but yet at the same time mostly joy. But not for me, at least, seeing
others suffer so much, i myself am scared too.
Anyway, i wouldn't even have a choice to chose from
'cos nobody's like that. Yes, world, i will be like that & like that
to any like that . Maybe i was brought up like that...

You were like that and i'm utterly shocked
and of course it definitely gave shock to that. What's the world going to
what is wrong with XXXX nowadays. Must every XXXXX be
so XXXXX? so downright XXXXXX? But i guess
it's alright, i'm going to like that. I'll make sure i'm totally immune.


I'm selfish, so too bad random people
Until i know/feel that it's the right time to tell
i will, so don't worry whoever who's close/seriously want to know.
I love the "like that" parts, i'm so smart(keke)

(edit)
oh yes, i'm sorry i haven't been uploading pictures
i've been v. busy + i have no mood 'cos it's so many pictures.
esp. jump shots, i wish there was a faster way of uploading pictures
(/edit)

Ever has it been that love
knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

Outing cancelled but it's okay. I'm going by myself to get the book.
Michelle,
heeeey, don't cry yea? I mean, it's natural to cry & such.
I know 'cos i experienced it + it didn't make my 1st day
of starting all the braces stuff happy. I was freaking demoralised.
Remember what people always say, "i'm sure XXX doesn't want
to see you XXX but instead XXXXXX." So remember that alright?
Everyone's backing you, so cheers yea?

(edit)
Going out alone was a good choice 'cos it really got me thinking
about alot of stuff. Let's see, my imagination is so good man
Bought the 2 books(finally) + bought BK for lunch
i forgot about coffee bean at tiong bahru & i was craving for
coffee bean/starbucks at the point of moment.
Cabbed home 'cos i didn't want to take bus & it was really hot
BAWL, i spent so much money this week
IT'S A FEW MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, i feel better if i write whatever i think about on my blog.
If i don't, don't you think it kind of defeats the purpose of a blog?
A blog afterall is an online diary!

Maybe you were right, all our selfish thinkings.
I just hate myself for being so indecisive. I just can't make up
my mind whether i do or i don't. Shall i say it's act. normal
to behave like that? I guess it's "mother nature"
This whole thing is a cycle that will forever be ongoing
& it will never break as long as you just keep doing that.
I think my imaginations are driving me crazy
i think of 50/50 situations that may, eventually come true.
Once my mind's hooked up on that situation,
i'll start getting paranoid. I don't want the same thing
to happen at all, it's not fun to feel that way. It's not
one bit fun no matter how happy i look, i may look
as if i'm not thinking about it or i don't give a damn about it
but i do. Every single thing that's happening in other
people's lifes, i think so much about it that i don't care about mine.
Ack, i just hate this okay. My whole mind's clogged up
i just feel so tensed up wherever i go. I just wish
this stupid dumb feeling will just go away, now.


sometimes, i wonder why i'm so emotional.
(/edit)

Hope is a waking dream

choir on sat @ HCI. Please, let time pass quickly!
I miss the girls la, they're like majority the only way i can
actually, seriously have fun. I guess seeing them for like almost 12 hours
for each 2 consecutive days make them an everyday thing.
I'm having lunch with the girls on sat + + + ICE CREAM!!!
I survived 3 hours of maths, yay. The new boy is damn weird +funny.

i don't think anyone(barely) reads this blog
'cos nobody seems to respond to my cries of going out(haha)
I hate this blogskin & i can't change it 'cos stupid
chuck's photo won't crop out nicely + No blair picture.

(EDIT)
HELLO WORLD? I'M SO HAPPY 'COS MY LONG HOURS
OF WAITING PAID OFF! I FINALLY KILLED THE DAMN DOLL
WITH THE HELP OF A FREAKING PRO KIND SOUL!
IT PAYS TO BE PATIENT + KEEP DREAMING ABOUT IT
okay, so right now i'm getting killed by stupid wolfs.
Nvm, i'm happy enough.
(/EDIT)

(RE-EDIT)
I forgot to say, don't waste your money on wild child :D
WATCH IT ONLINE! 'cos i watched it months ago
and only now it comes out in singapore, hehehehhehehhe.
I feel so good + Smart. I'm going out for lunch with mich
then i can buy my book like finally.

Letting go doesn’t mean giving up,
but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be

last minute went to Shaw to watch madagascar2 with my sister.
It was nice + funny! Anyway, i was randomly searching
the WISC on google and found someone who videoed us singing the jap song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FK7oXN0hi9E

No GG this week i guess(bawl)
I seriously want/need to get out of my house.
I may be watching madagascar with my sister+mum+dad??
Or maybe just my sister. Wasted, rebecca couldn't go out.

Apparently there's some filming going around at my house(cooolio)
i want to go backstage again, it's so awesome man.
I just remembered the "Jack & Jill" rhyme that we edited
to tease XXX & XXXX. Their reactions are super adorable.

Pictures time, no jump shots yet
'cos my blog will be like flooded, max.
I didn't upload some pictures 'cos i can't save it at all,
either too dark, too blurry or just weird.


(Faye faye!)


(Be Still)


(Infinite Blessings)


(Yeewei + Michoo)


(DIONNN!)


(Deborah, Michelle, Yeewei, Faye!)

My blog's gonna be flooded with pictures the moment i
edit everything(lighting's horrible) On sunday,
we took 216 shots. I haven't counted yesterday's ones!

I woke up quite early today, i have no idea why.
Actually, i don't mind everyday having rehearsal
'cos it's awesomely fun! 29th there's choir @ HCI.

So, here's the long awaited pictures(HEHE, YEEWEI!)
most of it is by order of time.

Farewell night

Umbrellas are a favourite


EMPORIOOOOOOOO


Tzeling + Yeewei!

WISC rehearsal(231108)


RDY


Rebecca, Deborah, Yeewei


Rebecca, Celeste, Deborah, Yeewei


Solitude


not-meant-to-be-twit-but-came-out-twit picture!


Deborah & Yeewei!


Weird Fishes


Drop-dead eyes, Kissable lips


We wear diamonds(fake)!


Dead Twists


Deborah & Michelleeeeeee!


5/6 Choir clique

Killer instincts

Today was yet another awesome day! Ultimate photo-taking session
with the girls! New discoveries and of course singing our freaking lungs out.
It was awesome 'cos we had like almost 4 hours of slacking time!
R + Y + me went upstairs and took nice pictures then later the stupid
guy chased us away, hmph. Took like 12782X%@%#@! of jump shots!

Came early, had a duper short lunch with mich
then headed back & took a few jump shots + passed the jerseys.
I miss the stupid class!!!!!!!!!! Bus-ed to esplanade.
Sat at the back and Michelle(lee) is super gay!
Gave them the melamine sweet

Something happened which was really @#Q)@(#1,
i don't know how to describe that feeling. I just kept thinking about it
and the stupid POTD song also made me cry while thinking about it.
R's :O:O:O(fake) didn't come so, it was less off-tune but still off-tune.
Then our awesome long break where we played taidi+cheat
and we were hiding the cards from Mrs Tan, it was really fun(haha)
Then our dinner+change+concert time. The concert was so nice okay,
the Jap song was the best, the ending totally rocked the house man.
After that, we all started jumping + felt so free. The jap's song's translation
is please give me wings(wth) Started taking pictures again and then
i headed home after getting a drink with mich.
Thanks girls+others for the really awesome awesome fun

Now i'm really tired, most prob. will update tomorrow(w. pictures)
maybe i'm just like that and i guess your are like that
and we're all like that so maybe i just can't be like that.
I really want to have that but i can't be like that
therefore, i don't get that. I'm feeling so like that
but i just have to accept that. Everything is just not like that
Every word, every reaction is just not like that that your like that.
It's just too long to like that.
Whoever who understands whatever i say is like wth?

Raindrops under the moon light

One word to describe today, AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
Met Yeewei, Rebecca, Michelle at the Esplanade entrance!
Then went towards some place and took the lift down to M.
Then suddenly the door didn't open and we were surrounded by black walls?
We were like OH CRAP, but the door suddenly opened :)
I'm not going to describe much but when we were singing
Rebecca's (fake) was so off and loud, we were bawling,
at least i was. HAHAHAHA, then rebecca had to leave us :(
But, we took alot of pictures after we changed.
Went back on stage, this time yeewei was sitting next to them
They sang even louder +off tune this time, wanted to cry
Yeewei & I were giggling, HAHAHA :D
Then later we called the guy who leads us to everywhere lost guy.
'Cos whenever we're lost he comes to find us, haha.

After that, Y + Faye + M headed to Marina.
Took photos+ Jumpshots at some random area infront of a toilet+lift.
Then yeewei joined her dad while we went to carls to eat.
Later we went somewhere secluded and took really nice shots
in the rain+ jump shots too! Then we went home via mrt!

Tomorrow the concert, better sleep early :)
Will upload photos soon

Feminine Power

I can't upload pictures today, sorry.
I want to gobble down the dress :) Okay,
there's the rehearsal tomorrow so i better sleep early!

Anyone wants to g out on wednesday?!?!?!

Red Neon Lights

Guess what man, i dreamed about me killing the doll again.
Unfortunately, today, I've not seen the doll so far.

Okay, so i'm using the computer right now.

Editing + Uploading pictureeeeees!

There's tons of unglam pictures here!

Darn, tomorrow i have to wake up super duper ultra early.

Most Prob. meeting the girls before heading to esplanade.

Woke up quite late 'cos i slept at 3am, awaiting the doll.

Of course, she didn't appear. Then i went to play Taidi+Sushido

Woke up at 12pm & found out my parents went to buy

the frozen version of Mac's pancakes & Ribs too.

Can't wait for tomorrow though it'll be tiring.

Hopefully i can go for dinner with the girls

not to mention, i definitely want to go marina square.

Been ages since i went there. OHHHHHHHH,

Joshua is so freaking lucky 'cos the building next to his church

has NewYorkNewyork+STARBUCKSSSSSSSSSSSS.

ANYONE WANTS TO GO OUT ON WEDNESDAY?!

Simple depressing words

Choir was really tiring and my voice went all weird
after singing for so long. The guys were so annoying 'cos they
just kept talked & talking. But i also talked too, hehehehe.
But i got tired and felt so bad to XXXXXX so i TRIED to shhh.
It didn't exactly work after awhile.
Sectionals were better & i had great time sharing with Y + R!
They're freaking cute okay & let's say, Y & I were like
when we saw something.

After choir was mini alto gathering & belda + Michelle are so funny.
We had canadian pizza + Chicken wings + Coke coke coke!
After that, Yeewei + Rebecca + I wanted to go Holland to drinks starbucks!
But we went to queensway to fix XXXX's jersey for free :)
Then we went to Ikea to have nice nice icecream & then we went home
OOOH, on the bus, we had so much to talk about. It was really fun
complaining and talking random topics.
Thanks Y & R for the great post-dinner time!

(EDIT)
WAHLAU, THE STUPID PRINCE CASPIAN DVD CAME OUT IN UK!!!!
I WANT ONEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID SINGAPORE!
COME ON, IMPORT FASTER!!!!!!!!! I'M WILLING TO PAY$60 for it!!!
Cheaper would be better though :)

BTW, i dreamt of ALMOST killing the stupid doll in GAIA.
We were so happily alive and killing her but then suddenly
i ran out of stamina and just died there(wth?) then everyone started dying
and when i clicked the doll, she just needed one noob shot to die.
(/EDIT)

(RE-EDIT)
YUCK, I'M SO ANGRY AND PISSED!
Let's see, my dream did come true(scary).
I saw the freaking doll twice during my log in. Once was when i was alone
and chionged to get people to help(nobody bothered) So,
i went back on my own and saw people fighting it.
One girl went to awaken before i could defib her then 1 guy was almost dying
tried to heal him + defib him but i got killed at the same time.
Waited with at least like 12 people for the darn doll for 2 hours,
BUT, i got killed by a freaking 20 crew of normal dolls.
Came back & found the stupid black doll there everyone was prac. dying
tried to heal but i ran out of stamina and died there.
Rushed back but the doll disappeared. STUPID DOLLLLL!
She regenerates her health so freaking fast!
Stupid GAIA better fix the glitch of her re-spawn.

TBH, i love this type of games, pointless+mindless.
BUT, i don't like maple
(/RE-EDIT)

a new dawn, a new day

I'm so freaking tired from today.
Slept quite late & was playing GAIA + talking to xingyi.
Woke up at like freaking 11+, quickly rushed through my tuition hw.
Headed off at 3pm-6+ bus-ed to the interchange
was supposed to fetch Kate back but she took the mrt.
Went to queensway to collect the jerseys.
I freaking didn't know that XXXXXX's name got spelled wrongly
'cos the letter printed on the shirt looked like the actual letter.
Ack, i'm going to play GAIA again. This time, those stupid dolls
better appear, have been waiting for a week already!
The stupid chest won't close = no dolls! But good anyway,
i'm orb farming & my charge level's high, woohoooooooo.
90210's ep11 has an error :( So i'm watching it online.
No more 90210 epi until next year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to the alto gathering tomorrow night!
Before we head there, maybe i'll go ask the people to reprint XXXX's shirt